if you read my pulse earlier, and commented, thanks for humoring me.
i’m a little simple like that. ;O)
actually, some of the guesses were something i had never thought of.
and, if you didn’t read it….
i had to go to the police department this morning for fingerprinting, and to get my picture taken.
no, i’m not working on my passport.
or moving toward fostering or adoption.
nor am i guilty of anything.
(the background check came back clear, so i can feel good about saying that.)
not laundering money either.
(unless you count pulling loose change out of the machine after the clothes have spun out.)
the reason i was there for such procedures was i’m working on becoming a substitute crossing guard for our small town school.
(cue the laughter, i know)
everyone seems to think this is pretty funny when i say it.
and, in the name of being a good sport, i can see the humor;
little ol’ Mennonite preachers wife standing in the middle of the intersection stopping traffic to cross children wearing her florescent green vest and photo id badge.
it does make a funny picture.
i’m excited about this little venture.
i still have to wait to do some training (make sure i know how to cross the street before i can cross kids? yep.)
i’ll be able to connect with more people in my community, and i’m ‘in’ to that.
i don’t know that i can make a big difference by doing this, but i’m doing what i can.
don’t know how many of you read Cassie’s blog?
every time i go there and read how she often ends her posts, i’m inspired.
it causes me to stop and ponder her little challenge to ‘Shine all your light’.
my light feels pretty small.
some days more so than i others.
but, i want to shine it when and where i can.
if that’s when i take the day to watch my neighbors grandbaby,
or I’m cleaning a messy 4 year old girls bedroom over and over,
or when i stop at the Post office,
or when i am scrubbing the floor,
or when i’m crossing school children at the cross walk.
i want to shine all my light.
it’s so easy to look at what is our lot in life and feel like we can’t do much.
and, believe me, i’m in that place in my head often.
but, when i look at the glass as half empty instead of half full, that’s how i see life.
the lot that is mine finds me home alot.
it finds me busy with housework, and children and such.
and, i love it, really i do.
but, there are certainly days when it feels like i’m not making much of a difference.
that’s when i think i’m comparing my light shining abilities with someone else’s.
and, if i’m not willing to make a difference where i’m at with what is mine, why would God give me what i think would be more difference making?
it goes right along with the thing of “He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much” from Luke 16.
someday, i will be but a speck of dirt.
but, while i’m here, i want to be faithful with the least and the much.
i want to be a little light, shining where i can.
when i can.
how He has made me able.
ps. and, if you come down our street some school morning before 8:35 am when i’m on duty, i promise to cross you safely!